I had to go with a baseball catchers mitt. I tried so many fastpitch catchers mitts and couldn't find one that fit my hand well. I ended up buying this one for $150:
https://www.baseballexpress.com/catalog/product.jsp?productId=19246
All Star Pro Series 35" CM3100BT
It works great for softball and fits my hand great.
https://www.baseballexpress.com/catalog/product.jsp?productId=19246
All Star Pro Series 35" CM3100BT
It works great for softball and fits my hand great.